What remains of a gone year

Finally the year 1386 is on the point of coming to an end , not many minutes later , today and this year will simply join a part of our brain reserved for memories of last year . Since childhood I have always been interested in starting , this desire in my childhood derived me to resort to any course of action to have my notebooks finished as soon as I could , for example , so that I could start a new notebook to suit my taste. . funnily ,every year in Norooz I have that vey same childish excitement since I view it as an opportunity I have been provided with to recommence arranging my life the way I desire . I feel the blacklist of my heart is so full of things and people that I would not be able to continue unless a break is given. Before I talk about the year to come , I invite you to accompany me as I explore the gone year of my life . They are few memories I intend to keep from this chapter of my life and I will throw the rest in the sea of oblivion. It got off to a very nice start with dream-like happiness and a heart beating for tomorrow , I had a lot of goals in mind , all of which except one are fortunately achieved now. But the fun was spoiled and apart from the first some months , the first half of the year for me will always be associated with long lonely elastic tearful sad hours , waking nights and worst of all a sudden burst of the bubble of my long thought -of dreams. I dare to say I was emotionally devastated and I have in mind from then my worst romantic experiences with much suffering , disrespect and insult. The first half ended in despair to an extent that I started doubting myself , the world , and every other good thing around. Luckily , things were not to last like that ,as God had better days for me in store which I attribute personally to my brave demonstration of patience , love and loyalty in the first half as despite having every chance to selfishly indulge myself I remained faithful to my ideals . It was not unrewarded , a real magical half was to follow , I could feel God whom I had abandoned for many years . Then came a flow of God's gifts to me , each of which enhanced my life in one manner . At the same time my dad , against all the odds , had a successful surgery which doubled the beauty of my life, I regained my faith in life and the mesmerizing splendor of world ,I started thinking more and more , I helped people even at the cost of having a hard time myself and above all I trusted people more than ever . In the hindsight I am even grateful to God for all the hard moments I experienced in the beginning . All these have made the second half of the year for me by far the most enjoyable and eye opening section of the book of my life so far. And now this year , as ambitious as ever I will set the boat of my tomorrow afloat with my eyes fixed on the horizon ,confident that the waves and the artistic hand of fate alongside with my persistence and good nature will lead me where I have always wanted to end up .I will see you next year , I hope you have chosen your route as well.