Friday, March 21, 2008

Last night , 11:30

A friend called me yesterday evenening , insisting he had to talk to me about something and I had a bunch of things to do , I sorted everything out and managed to go out with him late just before midnight , he was elated as he had finnaly poped the question and the girl concerned had replied with an affirmative smile . They are now dating , but they seriously have marriage in mind . Among the concessions the girl had made was her having promised to marry someone else , a friend of some years , but she had hastened to add she would personally go for my friend as he was a better option. My friend had reacted to this concession very mildly.
M was getting consultation from me last night , I was happy to see my friend in such a mood . however , somewhere in the back of my mind , I had something eating me . I couldn’t help thinking about the other angel of this love triangel .
A simple boy who had long made emotional investments on someone who would this simply turn away from him , this bothering was worsened when some memories of mine from three years ago were evoked , someone like that girl leaving me for the same reson. I thought of an established pattern of betrayal ,how some people find it easy to turn a blind eye on all the loveword exchange and good memories they share in the hope of clutching a better husband . I was stunned by how simple an act betrayal has become in some people’s minds and how rediculously they would try to forget . Then 3 years ago, I had a very hard time living through that horrible experience , which thank God I can laugh at now , remembering how little I was made to feel despite the grandeur I was thought to have makes me feel sorry for the boy in my friends story.
I personally have no hard feelings from then now , as life had a better course to take for me and things lightened up , it’s along time , but I still wonder why should some people suddenly go out of their minds to give away a world of memories in return for a husband , to whom they usually have to lie with regards to their previous love story . Mysteriously I have seen many girls in my life who follwed this same pattern of betrayal and were faced with massive regret , unsucseessful to continue with the second boy , wishing to make a come back when they had reached apoint of no return . In my story the same happend after 2 years , and I had no way but to reject her helpless invitations for the recommence of our romance as , to me , she was no more anything close to admirable.That's the rule , you can't break some one's heart like that and get away with it.
I wonder how week some people can get , those who can’t even keep a promise properly , those who would need the slightest temptation to go back on their words. To me the word commitment has always carried a lot of weight . I have had other experiences of emotional break ups aswell , but believe me, there is nothing as bitter as knowing your partner leaves you for some one else , even if she does and you don't know it , it's an improvement.
Putting all these aside , lovers do things to eachother , I believe if they continue loving eachother or living with each other , it’s not that they have forgotten all those things . they might always remember them but it’s that they have forgiven each other.
It takes alot to forgive

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